Sometimes you just have to be cruel

This is not the one that goes 'You have to be cruel to be kind'.

This is about being cruel to survive this mad, mad world.

I was never in a situation where I had to go out and look for a job, nor was I in a situation where I had to defend my rights and voice out my thoughts to my boss over another employee/student that were being mean to me. Haha macam budak kecik.

Well, there's always a first time right?

Today is a particularly bad day. Maybe I am meant to meet a 'peculiar' person every single semester, be it a tutor, or a student. Yes, 'peculiar' (I refuse to use the word jahat as I am trying to build a positive atmosphere here. Tehee)

Hubby says I am too polite and that's why people bully me. Whenever I wrote a complaint email to my boss, I try to cushion it a bit so that person does not appear so jahat and I don't appear too emotional.

Ijah told me she has stopped being all nice and polite after being in Emirates for sometime. She's realized that people will not stop stepping on you for as long as they think they can. No matter how we try to rationalize the behavior, we couldn't. Some people are just built that way and there's nothing that we can do about it, really.

There's two ways of going about it. One - to be as cruel as them. To always put my needs and my wants first. To do whatever it is takes to get what I want, even if it means having to be cruel or rude to others. Second - to stick to who I am, but to grow bigger than all of them that I become unaffected by what people do or say to me.

Which one would you guys choose?

I know I'd have a hard time choosing the first, not because I don't want to, but because I can't. So, I have no choice but to resort to the latter. I also think I'll be a better person by choosing the latter. I know one person who has no problem being the latter as he has always been that all his life.

Did I told you guys how much I am looking forward to 2011? Well, I am ;)

There's a lot to be hopeful for and I pray to God that all will be smooth sailing. Everything is looking up, and I am loving this positive vibe that I have with me right now and hope this will stay throughout the year, and more.

I hope all of your wishes are granted too, dear friends. God willing.

XoXo, love ya all.

I'm over the moon!

I'm sooooo happy today!! Weeeeeeee ;D

I've been on high for the last couple of days. If you're wondering why, well, we received an email which changes everything! Now I have so much things to look forward to in 2011 and I thank Allah for all the blessings!

To all my peeps, enjoy the rest of the weekend. I know I will! ;D

2 a.m post

It's 2 a.m and I am still studying for my exam.

I'm all stressed out and I don't know if I can make it this coming Friday.

I have the option of postponing the exam again but I chose not to because I am sick of studying.

At the same time, I do not want to waste the money that I have spent to sit for it, knowing that I will flunk it big time.

I was googling 'Life of an expat wife' and many articles came up.

Some talked about the frequent nerve wrenching moment of being asked what they do for a living.

Heh, I can totally relate to that.

Adults are define by what they do, not who they are.

You are either a teacher, a banker, an economist, or a nobody.

Dare to disagree?

For others, they spent their time cam whoring, shopping, cooking, and looking after the kids.

I seriously need to stop obsessing over finding a full time job.

Instead, I should start cam whoring too, and show the world what wonderful world I live in, just like they do.

Working part-time, going for baking classes, cooking, lazing around beaches, looking after my pets.

The only thing missing right now is a maid and a personal driver.


Now, do I sound like a bimbo, already?

Fomfuan pemalas takde arah tuju hidup

Ok so that pretty much sums up what I am feeling right now.

I postponed my exam because apparently 4 days of studying is not enough. So the new date is this coming Friday. Boleh pass ke nie? Cuakkk.

Tgh meroyan sebab tak ske tak ske study IT.

Did I told you guys how much I despises IT subjects?

Did I told you guys the only reason I stayed in the course was because I got scholarships for both my bachelor and masters studies? And also because I love my mates at MMU.

No one should stay or enroll in a course that they loath coz they'll end up like me.

Yes, just like me.

So what do I do now?

Sums up the courage to do what I want to do. Forget about the money coz the money will come when you love doing what you do.

Life is not worth living like this.

Benci CCNA to the max.

I can never be good at this :(

Life

Hidup ni biar berguna kat orang lain.

Dengar tak??

Hidup ni biar berguna kat orang lain!

Chaiyok!