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Ini adalah entry melepas perasaan: dont say I didn't warn ya peeps.

I am dead tired with questions pertaining to my fiancee. Some friends seemed to be overly concerned with the fact that I am engaged to a dude who is 12 years older than me. I have been asked various questions ranging from his bank account up to my parent's approval.

I would not say it did not hurt me as some of them came from those who are dearest to me. What amuses me the most is those questions came from friends with good educational background, work in top notch companies yet the mentality?

I'd say shallower than a kiddie pool. Nothing much to dig in there.

I mean, do I look like some bimbo who's got dollar signs in my eyes? Or someone who's marrying a dude who can be considered my dad? Am I ugly to a point I have no options and have to make do to anyone who proposed?

Last time I checked my advanced European masters degree is still intact in the blue folder. And I still receive my monthly paycheck from what many considered a reputable company. I may not go on hot dates every Saturday night but I think I look decent enough to have had boyfriends and dates over the years to be able to say that most men suck. Big time. Yeah, just like you. With pea sized brain who act like assholes.

What's with the age? What's the big deal about it? Tell me pretty please coz I just don't get it really. And what's with the question of whether he is rich? Even if he is, then what? Aren't you supposed to be happy for me? Does it make me a tramp for wanting to be with someone who has a good job and a decent paycheck?

Is age a breaking point? A go or no go? Maybe it is if you're marrying someone who can be considered your dad or your grandpa. But is 12 bloody years too much? Heck, he can even be your brother. Maybe he is a tad older, so what? Have you ever considered other questions to ask? Like whether he is a nice chap? Someone who comes from a good family? Is he responsible? Does he has good education / job? Is he smart enough for me to be able to look up to him? Does he make me laugh?

Would it matter if I told you that he is a super nice chap up to a point he is taken advantage off over and over again? Or that he was badly heartbroken once yet still wishes her the best in all that she does? Would it matter if I told you that he contacts his mother and sisters almost daily even when he is thousands of miles away? Would it count that he was the youngest chap by at least 10 years to have ever run the school? Or the fact that he goes out to lunch at least once a week with his janitor, and invites her to the school's fiesta when everybody else look down on her?

Maybe not. Coz no matter what I say you would still think that I am going for his money or probably snatching the first moving thing that comes my way.

I'm sorry if your hubby / boyfriend is having trouble to make ends meet and have to rely on you at the end of the month. I'm sorry that you have to chip in a hefty sum for that roof over the head and the furnishing even when it is his duty to provide. I'm sorry that he does not help you in the kitchen or with house chores even when he is not the sole breadwinner. Or the fact that he is not sensitive enough to remember your birthday and appreciate your sacrifices even when you bore him his child.

Just coz you're in deep shit, it doesn't make it right for you to condemn. Or is it jealousy that I sense?

You dated a guy for 6 bloody years and he wasted it on a bitch, yet had the guts to come crying to you and tell you that you're the very best thing that ever happened to him.
You dated a serial dater who told you that he had his eyes on you since the first day you two met, but who were you kidding?
And then you met someone who's smart, kind and sweet, and you thought hey, you've hit the jackpot big time. But then again, even the sweetest guy screw you and took you for a ride.

Men are just full of crap.

What the hell was I thinking when I said yes?

I go crazy when it's the time of the month. Bear with me honey.

I go crazy when it's the time of the month

cha ya nun alif celaka.

Melantak sudah tidak ada lagi dalam kamus hidup saya

Iye la tuh.

Tadi pagi saya makan meehoon goreng dengan telur mata dan sambal. Nak di jadikan cerita sambal tu ada belacan tapi saya belasah jugak. Habis la zit face muka saya pagi besok. Elok la tu, exactly what I needed. Lunch time pulak saya nekad pegi aerobic. Time melompat ok lagi, tiba time floor exercise memang saya kantoi. Huhu sangat sedih menjadi gemok dan takde stamina. It's 4.19 p.m here, I haven't eaten since and my tummy is making noises. LOTS of noises.

By the way, comel kan daisypath kat atas tuh? Main main dgn benda tu tetiba semalam baru sedar yang shoot, I only have like a month, 3 weeks and 2 days till the big day. Sempat ke nak kurus nie? Mati la pakai baju kahwin macam sarung nangka la gamaknya.

Anyway, I recently bought myself 2.5 meters of beaded off-white lace and also, 4 meters of off-white satin. Like I mentioned in the previous entry, I wanted to initially make baju kurung moden for all 3 ceremonies including the reception, so smart me figured that I'd be using 2 meters for the baju and half a meter to make patches to the kain and veil as to not look like a moving curtain (y'know, in a full body beaded lace. Ke cantik ah?). Anyway, few days ago I came across a simple yet elegant design on the internet which is perfect, I tell you, PERFECT for my white theme wedding. I emailed the photo to my mom and the first thing she said was "Eh, awak tu tembam. Boleh ke design macam nie? Nanti nampak perut boncit lak. Plus you need at least 3 meters for this kind of design." So there goes my dream dress :(

Apart from that, THE PERFECT DRESS is also made off french lace which cost a bomb and would definitely put a hugeeee hole in my pocket but I soooo want it like badlyyyy, teruk kannnnn? Told dear fiancee about it and obviously he thinks it's ridiculous to spend that much moolah for a 4 hour event plus you might not wear the dress anymore in future since it is white. Huwaaaaaa! Saya nak jugak boleh tak??? Saya tak boleh tido malam terkenang baju tu so can I please pretty please have it pleaseeeeeee?? Yes this is me bridezilla speaking! Tapi saya takut mak saya tau nanti dia marah. So much for kenduri kesyukuran nak beli kain harga tak masuk akal.

Annnyway, was talking to a colleague today and showed the same photo and he said "Go ahead! First of all you are not fat and second of all everybody has got tummy and you can always wear corset to cover it up". Tapi kan cemana nak cover kelebaran dari tepi lak??? Beats me.

Sangat sedih menjadi gemok.

Little nephew camwhoring with my mac!

"Uhh uhh what's this cik ngah?"
"Hmm what's this little button?"
"Oh wow it takes photos just like ayah's camera!"

"Then maybe I should do my usual twist! To the left..."
"...and to the right!"
"Goshh cik ngah this is so much fun!!"
"Come on dude check this out!"
"Ayah pleaseeeeee I'm not done with this!! Cik ngah helppppp!!!"

Nama: Adam
Umor: 3 1/2 tahun
Character: Sangat nakal dan hyper. Berpeluh macam mandi kalu kejar dia dalam shopping complex. Kecik kecik dah pandai camwhore thanks to the father who owns a DSLR and uses him as his favorite subject.
Kepandaian: Pandai mengeja dan menaip walaupon tak pandai cakap thus pandai meng-google dan meng-youtube his favorite cartoons i.e Upin Ipin, Pingu etc. We were at awe when he read out loud my dad's registration plate when he was 2 1/2 years old. Smart kiddo!
Hobbies: Computer games and obviously, camwhoring. Apa nak jadi daaaaaa he he.

Sib baik comel. Sayaaaaaaaaaag Adam muahhhhhhhh!

Kids are simply adorable aren't they? ;)

Asam pedas, one brilliant movie and best of friends. Just how I like it best.

Unlike most people who blog, I often spend hours in front of my lappy to finish up an entry. I love writing and all but I find it hard to concentrate and words never seemed to be on my side or flow like the river when their inside my head. To translate what's inside my mind into words is like asking little boys to sit and do geometry. They'll love the mechanical aspect but will take hours to merely do a circle by staying still. Errr is that even a decent comparison? See what I mean?

Anyways, I've just lost a whole stack of DVDs that I got from last year *haiyak there goes my collection* so a friend had to buy a brand new VCD of Sex and the City for our movie-watching last night. That movie never fails to move me and I was in fact an avid watcher of their series a couple of years ago. I know some people think it's lame but I personally think the scripts were brilliant, the characters were distinctive and fun, and the storyline was simple but awesome as it was mainly about men and relationships but it just gets to me every single time, know what I mean? Oh and not forgetting thanks much to another friend for that mean asam pedas ikan parang. Gosh I am salivating as I am writing this so dear friend can we have another feast of asam pedas soon please? He he.

Oh did I tell you people that I simply love My sassy girl? Not the American remake but the original Korean version that had me laughing and crying at the same time!


I think I've read somewhere that it was the first Korean film that won an international award back in 2002 perhaps? What got to me the most was the fact that it was a true story so being a romantic at heart *bluwekk* it made me believe that there is still good (men) in the world though they might be scarce he he. It was about pure love and fate and just that. I love simple storyline but one that manages to give your heart a tug, know what I mean? For those who have never seen the film I urge you to and for those who are interested in the plot you may just want to check this out. Shall we have this on our next DVD watching session girls?

I am currently down with a slight fever and am on MC since 11 am this morning. Had my steroid dosage after brunch so things are looking a bit more promising though my nose is still running. Apart from that, life is swell and I have much to be thankful for.

Good night everyone, may we have a better week ahead. Adios!

The latest dope

Haven't seen this around, have you?


Kinda boring at first, but once you get the hang of it - it gets more interesting and quite a page turner that I had trouble putting it down. Kudos to the Musas for a brilliant book which looks into Malaysia in the 70s. I do not think it is available in the local bookstore but hey, I haven't been looking for one so who knows? (To those interested probably you can check out eBay or Amazon but I suppose it must come with a hefty postage fee). Apart from the bureaucracy dramas and the infamous telephone saga (ape ke he TM dolu2 nie? buek malu den jo!), also included were some juicy stories regarding the royals which shall not be revealed here but I can bet ya, will leave you in awe.

So what are ya waiting for? I say go get the book and enjoy the read!